My soul brings tears to angelic eyes

Well, things seem to be going fine I would suppose. No, not fine as in.. 'im fine' just... fine. Not horrible... not spectaculer. Just fine.

I'm starting to think about things. ONCE AGAIN. I know it's bad thinking. Just about certain "friends".

I feel like shit. A lot of times for just not being there for many of them. Cause I know they will turn around and say 'you were never there for me' when there are reasons why I didn't want to be there in the first place. It sounds horrible yes I know, but I am tired of just being someone to run to when everything is so horrible and they need a self esteem boost just to know that someone still cares about them. I have no clue if what I just typed made any sense at all but yeah.... I'm not trying to sound bitchy but...they don't care about me... and it gets me pissed. They don't give a shit. If I died who would be at my funeral. What would be said? I ask that all the time. It sucks. I dunno....I am in a weird mood I should be going My Andrew is comming over in about 20 min. so yeah.. Im not depressed don't worry, just questioning my existance.

Be GONE! ::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: I added this at 1:21 AM cause I thought it was hilarious......READ! READ! READ! A man who just got a raise decides to buy a new scope for his rifle. He goes to a rifle shop, and asks the clerk to show him a scope. The clerk takes out a scope, and says to the man, "This scope is so good, you can see my house all the way up on that hill." The man takes a look through the scope, and starts laughing. "What's so funny?" asks the clerk. "I see a naked man and a naked woman running around in the house." the man replies. The clerk grabs the scope from the man, and looks at his house. Then he hands two bullets to the man and says, "Here are two bullets, I'll give you this scope for nothing if you take these two bullets, shoot my wife's head off and shoot the guy's dick off." The man takes another look through the scope and says, "You know what? I think I can do that with one shot!"


	2002-07-18 \| 11:51 a.m.
	Well, things seem to be going fine I would suppose. No, not fine as in.. 'im fine' just... fine. Not horrible... not spectaculer. Just fine. I'm starting to think about things. ONCE AGAIN. I know it's bad thinking. Just about certain "friends". I feel like shit. A lot of times for just not being there for many of them. Cause I know they will turn around and say 'you were never there for me' when there are reasons why I didn't want to be there in the first place. It sounds horrible yes I know, but I am tired of just being someone to run to when everything is so horrible and they need a self esteem boost just to know that someone still cares about them. I have no clue if what I just typed made any sense at all but yeah.... I'm not trying to sound bitchy but...they don't care about me... and it gets me pissed. They don't give a shit. If I died who would be at my funeral. What would be said? I ask that all the time. It sucks. I dunno....I am in a weird mood I should be going My Andrew is comming over in about 20 min. so yeah.. Im not depressed don't worry, just questioning my existance. Be GONE! ::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: I added this at 1:21 AM cause I thought it was hilarious......READ! READ! READ! A man who just got a raise decides to buy a new scope for his rifle. He goes to a rifle shop, and asks the clerk to show him a scope. The clerk takes out a scope, and says to the man, "This scope is so good, you can see my house all the way up on that hill." The man takes a look through the scope, and starts laughing. "What's so funny?" asks the clerk. "I see a naked man and a naked woman running around in the house." the man replies. The clerk grabs the scope from the man, and looks at his house. Then he hands two bullets to the man and says, "Here are two bullets, I'll give you this scope for nothing if you take these two bullets, shoot my wife's head off and shoot the guy's dick off." The man takes another look through the scope and says, "You know what? I think I can do that with one shot!" << \| >>