It is Friday and I am bored. I was supposed to go to Melissas and Michelles house today along with doing something with Tim and Riannan but, instead my mom decides that I should stay home and bake nasty ass cookies with her. Then, my dad is in a bad mood and we were getting along and he goes upstairs and then comes downstairs and tells me to leave and all this other shit. So I ask him "What the fuck just crawled up your ass?" Then he tells me to "Fuck off" and "Go upstairs" So as I am leaving I tell him to "get a life you fucking stoner" and that was the last thing said. I think that coment that I said may have hit him a little hard. Oh well, he's an asshole.

My aunt came over this morning as well so of course my mom has to act like she still has complete control over me and starts bitching about the way I am sitting on the furniture. Even though she's a fucking fat ass and is probably breaking it just by sitting on it herself. She starts talking to me like I am an idiot again and tells me that I have to get my work schedual today. NO SHIT REALLY!? NO FUCKING WAY!? I HAVE A JOB AND I HAVE TO GET THE WORK SCHEDUAL!? **makes retard noises** GEE THANKS MOM CAN YOU HELP ME WIPE MY FUCKING ASS NOW TOO!

Im goin crazy here.

Also, when I am sitting on the couch she says "You should respect me and my property" ......I burst out laughing. In fact I was laughing so hard I was crying. She didn't like that so much. "I don't disrespect things of yours that are even MINE"

I say "What the fuck is yours that you think you can take away?" "Your car" .....I burst out laughing again. At this time my aunt thinks I am crazy. Looking at us with much confusion in her face as a stop laughing, stand up and BITCH I say, "EXCUSE ME!" (my mom gets frightened look in her eyes) "You honestly think YOU would be able to take my car AWAY from me!" I BOUGHT that fucking car. I PAYED for the insurance I PAYED for the tabs I PAYED for everything in and ON that Fucking car that has to be fixed" ......mom interupts and says "You owe me 360$" ....I ONCE AGAIN START LAUGHING...." SINCE WHEN were there 60$ added on to the 300$ that I owed you mom....did you just decide that you wanted more fucking money cause you lost it at the casino lats night or what!?....." "No, I payed for the parking pass at Rosemount, You can take the bus." "EXCUSE ME MOM!?I have never heard you be so fucking retarded in my life! RIDE THE BUS AND I HAVE # MONTHS LEFT OF SCHOOL! RIDE THE BUS AND I AM A SENIOR IN HIGHSCHOOL WITH MY CAR! MY MY MY MY FUCKING CAR MOM! MY CAR! YOu WERE JUST BITCHING ABOUT HOW I SHOULD STOP ASKING FOR RIDES! MAKE UP YOUR FUCKING MIND WOMEN! DO YOU LIKE THINKING YOU'RE IN CONTROL OF ME! FUCKING BITCH!YOU CAN TAKE THAT 60$ OFF OF TAXES YOU BITCH! WHY THE FUCK DID YOU EVEN GIVE ME THE PARKING PASS? WHY THE FUCK DIDN'T YOU TELL ME I HAD TO PAY FOR IT!? FUCKING BITCH I HATE YOU!" At this point my aunt is looking at my mom...like my mom is well.....a bitch. I go on bitching about how I was paying my mom back that 300$ anyway and reminding my mother that my car was 500$ I payed for most of my insurance and she only has 3 months of insurance that I owe her. And, if she wants to play that game than fine..... She can cancel my insurance I will take care of it but it is MY car. I PAYED for it. She just shut up eventually.

I think she understands that she drives me to insanity and she likes poking at it quite a bit. She wants to push me. She wants to fuck me over in some way where she is just going to keep taking my money and screwing with my life. That's why that whore keeps wanting to know when my paycheck is comming and how much it is. So she can take my fucking money.

I am sorry for this long vent. I just hope that when I get off of this comp in a little bit that I don't turn into Lizzy Bordon.

Song listening to/stuck in head: Hatebreed "Before Dishonor"

"What make you think everything is this world that you have

can be taken away? In a world this day, it's kill or be killed. I

live each day like it might be my last. In this lifetime few

things are worth fighting for. My Blood. Your Honor. Everyone

has a destiny. I'll choose my own. I will not be a victim

(chorus) My cries won't go unheard (x2) I got to fight for

myself. I'll choose my own destiny and i won't let anyone take

away what i hold do true. I won't live in denial. And I

won't turn the other cheek. I must remain convicted and

never accept this suffering. I've learned from my mistakes

and I've made a promise to myself. I won't live in the past

(x2) I've been affected by your lies and I've let then hold me

back. I wasn't thinking for myself. I wasn't living for myself

(repeat chorus) What i have in my heart I'll take to my grave"