I don't like the way I have been acting the last two days. I got my period and for some reason I am actually getting PMS. Andrea doesn't usually get this. Andrea doesn't usually get cramps either. I have both. I tried Midol for the first time yesterday and I don't like what it does to me. It makes me physically feel better but, it just makes that whole PMS thing worse. What the fuck? I sound like a 13 year old just getting her period for the first time and here I am, almost 18 and I am talking about how I just experienced cramps. I fucking hate being a girl. More so than ever before.

All I fucking wanted last night was a nice calming sleep over with my boyfriend where we could cuddle and sleep and drool on each-other. All that fun stuff but, NO! I have to be bleeding from my fucking vaginal area. My UTERUS... FUCK! I didn't want to cry I didn't want to fight or make him cry I just wanted to cuddle god damnit! That's what I wanted. .. It isn't fair. Why am I acting like this? I'm Andrea ... Im not supposed to be a stupid girl. IM ANDREA! blah. Im gonna go cry because im not the way I wanted to be last night but decided to be that way anyway. If that makes any sense at all. Where is ANDREW!!?? Stupid fucking Blockbuster. Stupid fucking me being a stupid girl. stupid! Im going now.