I've been pretty busy lately. At least im keeping myself busy anyway. Hanging out with new people and enjoying their company.

Jon got his license taken away so now I am his taxi. I don't mind at all halling Jon around because he always makes the night interesting. I went to the Hatebreed and Slayer show with him and Nick last night. I love Hatebreed. mmmmmhmmm that I do. Slayer was also neat. I wish my dad could have been there. I know he just sat at home and did nothing too. That's the sad part.

I had a bad dream last night after the show and didnt really sleep well. I had a dream about a funeral again. You know how I have those re-occuring ones about my own funeral? It wasn't mine this time. It was my whole family. My mom, dad and sister all got into a car accident right in front of me eyes. I was at the funeral and I remember sitting next to Jon because it felt like he was the closest thing to family I had.

It's true though. He really is. He looks out for me and I look out for him as though we are really close brother and sister. He's such a good friend I hope he knows that. Im sure he does. Just cause the other day he was telling me how he hopes can see many more birthdays to come. "At least 10 more anyway, until one of us is killed off from cancer." We laugh now but, if that ever came true ... I would die, that is if I wasnt the one who was dying.

My grandma is talking to me. I love my grandma as much as she may be rude and such. I still love her.

Im supposed to do mushrooms on saturday with courtney and Bethany. I love those girls. Im glad I can finally find some common ground with girls. Especially Courtney. I love that girl.

People have asked me if its weird being such good friends with Jon and Courtney because they are dating. It's not at all. I'm glad that they aren't immature about it.

I'm kinda lonely lately. I get worried and wonder sometimes if I lost myself while I was dating Andrew. I was so into me and him that I completely forgot who I was. I don't regret being in love with him. I don't regret losing my virginity to him either. I just wonder sometimes if it's equal. About a year ago my puppy Hendrix passed away. I was thinking about that night and how much Andrew helped me. I still feel like I need his help because we were so close but, it feels like I don't know who Andrew is anymore. Not one bit. I don't know anything about him. It hurts, but people change. That's the way it is.

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I have to meet Courtney soon so I should be heading off. My mind is filled with so much mixed emotion that I need Courtney to talk to. I'm glad she's here. She helps, Jon helps and so does Kassie.

I wish Michelle was still here =(

I gotta go. So much is going through my head. I need to vent. I hope Courtney is willing to listen tonight. I love that Chica.

Wish me luck in my future.

My parents are officially getting a divorce I believe. That's the new gossip in the family. OUt of all the drama. Family drama, at least in this family is the worst.

Wish me luck on triiping on Mushrooms in minneapolis! Woo CITY TRIPPIN!!!!

love you all! <3Andrea<3