I am at Taylors once again.... and also once again he is taking a shower and I am here in his little recording studio trying to keep warm next to the little space heater. I miss my old friends... I remember when I used to have Andy and Davey and Chewie and sometimes Josh and Andrew over and they would tackle each-other in the middle of my living room floor... our little movie nights always kicked ass and I remember hanging out with Jen and Tonia and Chewie and they were the coolest people... I dont even know if they know I exist anymore. I know I dont mean much to them. I will never forget those memories though. I wish I could go back so I cherished them more. I remember Jens dog attacking my arm and such. HA! That was so funny. I still have the scars. Chewie, I miss that girl too her little car that I was always in for so many days after school. I thank her much for that. Her neat halloween and movie party things. Those were neat too and although Andy is dating my bestest friend Michelle... Andy hasnt called me or hung out with me since that day so long ago when I set those two up.

I'm hidden to all of those people now and many more. I talk to Tony and Adam more than those guys and that's almost weird. Still, to even Tony and Adam im a stranger. I miss my old old crew and want one last time for that to happen... I want to go back a few years and remember the last time that did happen...it was a while ago. Friends that werent based off of drugs and stupid shit. Yeah, we were caught up in high school drama but what highschool student wasn't? We were still a tight group of friends... we gave hugs every day after school to everyone before you left.. if you didnt something was wrong... if you were sick for a day everone knew. Everyone cared.. they were my family back then. Back when Aaron and Nate were actually cool and not just slutty ass holes or ass hole stoners. When at least it seemed like they gave a shit back when everyone seemed like they gave a shit. I wonder now... if it was real. I know for me it was. I guess its kind of a lonely night for my mind for my thiking and for my memories. I do have Taylor though and hes such a sweety I don't know now what I would do without this kid.

A weird connection with Taylor and Chewie is Taylors older brother is dating one of Chewies friends Angela who worked at the theatre with her and Jen too I know. So now I even see Angela more than I see all of these people. I miss it. Oh well, This is the first time in 4 days that I have been out of my house and here I am sitting at Taylors waiting for him to take a shower. I'm a hermit crab. It was Simons 21st birthday on Saturday and he came to my house to have his party. It was pretty wild. Ha! Simon... I love that kid. I need to get a hold of him cause he left some stuff at my house. I must be going however. I am pretty sick of typing and im getting sad thinking about stupid shit I guess. Talk later.

Song listening to/Stuck in head: Deftones "Shove It"